Woah. I feel like I just read all of my old text messages and fell back in love with an ex-boyfriend.
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I didn't. But I did just spend the last hour reading every single word on this site and it brought me so much joy. I was excited, proud, empowered.
Maybe it sounds crazy, but I needed that reminder. I think I had actually forgotten why I ever began this thing or what it was about. I mean, it's pretty obvious I haven't visited in a long time, (*cough* November *cough*), but just right now, I fell back in love.
I remembered how much of my passion was ignited within these words. I remembered how much I enjoyed just telling stories, expressing myself with no assignment, no boundaries and why I created this in the first place.
I don't have an excuse for why I've been absent. I could blame busyness or some other distraction or make something up, but the truth is, I actually have a slew of drafts that I just never finished or never posted.
Maybe I'll blame perfectionism...you know, I couldn't finish because I couldn't make the words come together perfectly, so I lost focus and ran out of time. Except that doesn't work either because unfortunately, I've learned that when you let "perfectionism" plant roots inside of you, it begins to grow vines that suffocate and restrict you, and all you're left with is a bunch of unfinished nothingness and another excuse.
So I guess this is my vow to exchange "perfect" for continuous improvement and to get back to writing, expressing, and sharing...I've come to talk with you again.
LOVE YA'LLL MAN FOR REAL! THIS FOR EVERYBODY IN MP, KNOXVEGAS, MY MAMA PEANUT!
*Ok, if anyone actually got that reference, leave a comment below. I'll send you $100............in peanuts.*